Tuesday, July 31, 2012

Today's Kick in the Butt

I just can't seem to get up off this couch today. I am breathing a little better. I planned on going running anyway to help with the breathing.

I had some organic cereal for breakfast. I'm starting to suspect there is sugar in it. I had one serving for breakfast, and have been craving it ever since. I just had a second one for my morning snack.

I need to fight off this craving. And I also need to ...

Hmm. I lost that train of thought.

Anyhow, I need to fight these cravings. I also need to fight to get my fitness in today.

It's hot outside. It's already 27C (81F) with a humidex up to 31C (88F). It's supposed to climb to 39C - about 102F. It's going to be too hot to run, if it isn't already too hot.

I am feeling so lethargic. All I want to do is curl up and go to sleep.

I need to fight this off.

Am I sick? Kind of, but that shouldn't keep me from running. Running will help this one clear up. My breathing is better. It will get even better if I go running.

Am I sore? Not really. Just weak. Running will fix that.

So what's my problem? Just lazy I guess.

What is wrong with you? Do you think you'll ever get anywhere near here just sitting on your butt??? REALITY TIME. NO WAY!

There is no such thing as having no time. It's that it's not a priority.

So why is this not a priority for me today?

Because I'm feeling very down. I'm upset. It's looking like I lost my job, through no fault of my own. I've got some allergies. I can't work there. I made the choice. My health is worth more than any job. I know this. So why am I so upset?

It's just another loss. I don't know how to cope with these very well.

I have the olympic womens gymnastics on tv right now. Canada is on the uneven bars. Doing great so far.

I just don't get it.

I was frustrated when I tracked the food I ate yesterday. It was higher in calories than I thought. No surprise really I guess. It just adds up so fast.

When I got on the scale, I was honestly expecting a bigger number than I saw. Then I realized I guess I have lost some weight. I've dropped from the 227-230 down to the 224-226.

Oh yeah. I was fighting to get closer to 220 by the 25th. That day's come and gone. My lowest weigh in this week was 223.6. I really need to get the scale back down to that asap.

I just can't seem to break this funk.

I put together my calendar for August yesterday. It's all ready for filling up with my weekly goals, and checking them off as I go day by day.

So am I going to just sit here and let today pass me by? Or am I going to make the most of my day. It's a gift. I'm not at work. It gives me the perfect opportunity to make me a priority today.

I guess it's time to prove what my priorities are. Am I going to make my health and fitness a priority? Or am I going to waste today?

Sunday was a long day in the car - over 6 hours of driving to Brandon and back. Monday I didn't go running. I was worried about work. I've also found once I take one day off, it snowballs into day after day after... Just look at me now.

All I need to do is get dressed and get out and move for a while today. It will re-start my momentum. I truly believe that.

I just realized, I haven't had any water this morning. Or my supplements. What is wrong with me???

Get dressed. Get out the door. Go to Sobeys, the mall, or Walmart. Walk. Take water and walk. Just get moving again.

Why is it I just feel like bursting into tears


I went for a walk. I couldn't go as far as I wanted - lawn mowing by the city in progress. I decided to turn around and go home, rather than get sick by walking through and breathing that.

I got back here and uploaded my bodymedia again. Well, I think I found out why I'm like this today. I only got just over 5 hours of sleep last night. 62% sleep efficiency. Just crappy to say the least. Wow.

July 30 BodyMedia

Wow.  Look what happens when you don't track your food for the day.  I had no idea I was eating that much.  My bad.  At least there was still a deficit, but wow. 

I spent the day sick again - allergies.  I didn't run, since I couldn't breathe.  I've gotta fix that today.

Sunday, July 29, 2012

July 28 BodyMedia

Not a bad day at all.  I wasn't able to finish my run, but before I got home, I decided to just keep going as far as I could run, and walk the rest of the way across town for coffee in the morning - its just over a mile each direction.  It helped me get all my fitness and steps in for the day yesterday.

Saturday, July 28, 2012

Today's kick in the butt

It's surprising how different things are this morning. All week I've had to get up and get out there and run. No if's and's or but's about it. I didn't even have time to do a kick in the butt blog on my way out. Yes, I ended up taking a couple days off, and the third one, I only got a half run in.

Today though, I don't have to rush out the door. I'm finding I have settled, and need to kick my butt to get out the door.

I had my breakfast. Now just giving it a few minutes to settle.

If I want to get closer to this, I need to keep re-working my program. I am loosing at a rate of 1.17lbs/week (info from my bodyMedia). I am going to keep working to upping that to 2lbs/week again. I am still focusing on eating 6x/day to help it along. And I also have to keep up my running/cardio.

I know. I'm neglecting Strength training again. I could go on and say there is no time. I'm focusing on a new job, and keeping my cardio up so I keep loosing weight. blah blah blah. Reality is that there is no such thing as "I don't have the time...". The truth is "It's not a priority for me" (Thanks Yoovie). I'm not making that my priority right now. I know I will have to change that, but it's not a priority for me to change it today.

There. It's out there. I'm being 100% honest with myself.

So am I going to do the same with my cardio today? Just decide it's not a priority for me? That I really don't want to get closer to this goal?

I don't think so.

Somewhere in here, I've decided this is what I want. I'm still striving for it, even though I know how hard it is. No matter how down I get on myself for where I am at that point. This is still a goal. If it weren't I wouldn't get down on myself about where I am.

So if it's something I keep coming back to, I need to realize where I am now, I will only stay stuck. Not going running will only lead me farther away from this goal. I say farther away, because the time will have passed. I can't get it back. I may even gain more weight to loose in order to get to this goal weight. If I'm not taking steps forward, I'm risking taking them backwards. That's just how it is.

I KNOW I'll still be here a year from now if I don't do something to change this. Heck. look at the last year. I wish I were there then. I didn't do what I needed to do. Here I sit a year later still wishing I'd found a way to make this all work a year ago.

Back from todays run.  Didn't finish Week5Day2.  I'll try again tomorrow.  In the meantime, I did get in 1.6miles in 20minutes.  In total, I walked and ran almost 4 miles.  Not bad, considering the heat and the trouble breathing.

July 27 BodyMedia

Not bad for yesterday.  I got in half of my run.  I didn't quite meet meet all my goals for today, but I did meet some.  Calorie burn, calories consumed, deficit, vigorous physical activity all met.  I didn't get enough moderate activity, or steps.  Sleep the night before was a little low too.

Friday, July 27, 2012

July 26 BodyMedia

Overall not one of my better days.  Didn't get my fitness in.  Ate over my calories.  Didn't get my steps or activity in.  Oh well.  We all have days like that.  Time to step it up.

Thursday, July 26, 2012

July 25 BodyMedia

Not bad for a day off of fitness.  Still had a good calorie deficit. 

Wednesday, July 25, 2012

No kick in the butt today

After what happened yesterday, I decided to let myself rest today.  I don't want to re-hash it all.  It's in my blog "Day 7 Probiotics - July 24". 

I emailed my doctor to find out if sugar could have possibly caused the issues I had yesterday. 

Other than that, I've decided to take a day off.  See if I am over stressing my body.  I honestly don't think I am.  At least not if I am well, I'm not.  But maybe I just need some rest. Whatever is going on, it's not okay. 

So no kick in the butt today. 

July 24 BodyMedia

Looks like Lee pissing me off and my loosing my appetite helps keep my calories way low.  I know.  Not a good thing.

I am hoping the extra sleep I ended up getting will help with the anger I had yesterday.  I'm not 100% sure, but I think I had a bad reaction to sugar. 

Otherwise, it's all looking good.

Tuesday, July 24, 2012

Day 7 probiotics - July 24

I had some sugar yesterday. Ice cream to be exact. About 3 servings.

Well, for starters, I crashed. Asleep about 8pm. Would've been earlier, but I had to go get my daughter. I thought that was bad enough.

Today I'm so angry I just can't stand it. I tried to go get groceries. What a mistake that was. I could've killed the next person who pulled off some of that shit. And it didn't matter what it was really. I was just PISSED OFF!

Get home to tell lee I never should have gone out. Just overwhelmed with stress & anger. So I log onto my computer to distract myself for a bit.

Well, mr control freak starts in on me. That was it. I threw my laptop at him & walked out of the room. His response! "Don't be like that!". How the hell should I be??? Do I have to ask your friggin permission to do what I need to do to deal with my anger???? Seriously????

I get it. Something's wrong. But his trying to control my every friggin move is just making it all worse! I can't take it anymore.

So as you can see, I'm over reacting. I'm stressed right out. I'm angry. This all can't be just from having some sugar yesterday can it?

How am I supposed to know if it's a reaction to a food? Or if there is something else going on? And does sugar actually stress people out this badly?

I feel like I'm loosing my mind today!

July 23 BodyMedia

Not bad, considering it was my first day at a new job.  I only got in half of my run, but I fixed that this morning.

I overdid it on calories, and have to admit there was some sugar in there.  Actually, lots of sugar.  I ate some ice cream.  That has to stop NOW!  I ended up crashing.  I fell asleep at 8pm last night.  Waking early, running, working all day, and top it off with a sugar crash.  no wonder.

Monday, July 23, 2012

July 22 BodyMedia

Not too bad overall.  I burned more calories.  Kept my intake down.  Even got all my steps in.  Lots of sleep too. 

Sunday, July 22, 2012

Why is this such a hard thing to do???

I mean seriously.

My challenge - to eat 6x/day. 3 meals and 3 snacks.

I just can't seem to do it. It's not that I'm not hungry and wanting to snack. It's just I can't seem to do it.

I go to the fridge. I come away with nothing.

Because of my food restrictions right now, it's hard to find things. But almost all fruits and vegetables are fair game. I have about 8 pieces of fruit in the fridge as I am writing this.

But I don't want them.

What is my problem? I like fruit. But I look at them. I decide I don't want them. Can't figure out what I do want. So I close the fridge and decide to wait. Right now it's because it's almost time to start to cook supper.

So what. If I got up and started cooking now, it'll still be about an hour to supper. It's not like a piece of fruit will ruin my meal.

I get that it's not chocolate, or pasta, or some rich heavy snack. I can't eat chocolate. I really should take it easy on the pasta, because in a few weeks I won't be able to have much of it for a while.

I know I'm just plain angry.

I'm angry that I am so hungry. I'm angry that it's so much more work to feed myself. I'm angry that anyone else can just walk into the grocery store and pick something up. Heck, they can walk into a fast food place and get something to eat. Not me. Between food allergies, and food allergy testing/restrictive cleansing diet for the testing, I can't.

I'm also finding I may not ever go back to some things. I won't eat anything that has citric acid on the label anymore. I think that's what contaminated me over the past year and had me getting sick again.

I still can't eat excessive fat. Deep fried foods, yuck! My body rebels against it.

Sugar - FORGET IT! After what happened a couple of days ago when I tried to have a "treat", no way.

But that's the hardest one to cope with. Do you have any idea how many things have sugar in them? At least I'm learning how to make home made ice cream, my own version of prego, BBQ sauces, fruit syrups and fillings , etc. But seriously. It's a lot of hard work.

Right now I have 12 - 500ml jars of fruit sauces. 4 cherry. 4 blackberry. 4 raspberry.

Wait a minute. I'm not on a strict cleansing diet for the next few weeks. I can add some of this fruit to cottage cheese. That will be so yummy!

At least I have one more snack idea.

Today's Kick in the Butt

There was no running for me yesterday. It wasn't really a planned day off. It just happened that way. I didn't get up early enough to run, so I was going to try to go in the evening. But then got too much sun out in Crosby, and needed rest more than I needed to run.

So it was unplanned, but I'm not counting it as a mistake either. Sometimes life gets in the way. It doesn't happen for me often, so I'm good with it.

However, that means I've only run 3x this week. Between my injury, and live getting in the way once...

That's not so good. No use dwelling on that fact though. My body needed the rest. I can't change the past. So now it's time to move on to today.

It's a beautiful morning out. The sun is shining. The storm we had last night cooled everything off. I will need to put on bug spray - cooler wet air means mosquitoes. It's already 20C out there. No use waiting until it heats up. Now's the perfect time.

Going to tackle C25K Week4Day3 again - run 10min, walk 1min repeat 2x, then finish with an 8min run. I was so close on Friday. I had to walk once in my second 10min run, but then quit 2min before the end of my last run. I was less than a block from home, and worn right out. My HRM said I really pushed that workout too. Not bad considering I was off for three days - one easy run and two full days off.

So today I'm going to kick that workout. Finish it strong. Come home sweaty and tired, but accomplished.

Just got back.  Kicked C25K Week4Day3's butt.  Done.  Avg hr was 147.  Spent 55% of my run in zone 3 for my heart rate.  It's getting higher, which is okay.  I am still able to finish my run strong, even though my heart rate is not dropping down yet.  I'm sure I'll see it drop soon

Day 5 Probiotics - July 22

I really am finding nothing new to report at this stage.  Things are going well.  My moods are much better.  I am running regularly.  I am still struggling with weight loss, but that will be a long battle. 

I think I'll stop with these daily updates until I am making changes again, or something major happens. 

So the next known big change will be when I go back on the cleansing diet 100% again.  That will be in 4 weeks and 2 days.  Mind you, I think I'll start it early, so I can start testing foods again sooner rather than later.  I really don't want to still be doing this into October when we have Thanksgiving here.

So that date  is ....  August 14. 

So unless there is something major to report between now and then - some accidentally discovered food allergy, or some major mood/pain/etc, I won't bother updating again until then. 

July 21 BodyMedia

Not bad for not getting my run in.  The physical activity has no vigorous activity, but I got in plenty of moderate.  Didn't get all my steps in though.  It was a killer hot day yesterday.  We all got a little too much sun. 

Saturday, July 21, 2012

Day 4 Probiotics - July 21

Today is not too bad a day.  I am so tired and lethargic, but I didn't eat nearly enough food yesterday, so this doesn't surprise me.  Couple the low calories with the heat, and that explains why I'm ready to go to bed again.

Otherwise, everything is going well.  No reactions.  No pains.  No mood swings.  No anger.  It's all good. 

July 20 BodyMedia

Not too bad overall.  I need more steps.  And lots more calories.  I'm paying for that today.  I'm sluggish and lethargic. 

Friday, July 20, 2012

Today's Kick in the Butt

It honestly feels great to be back kicking my own butt into action again. It was hard to take a couple of days off. Watching the scale hover a pound or two above what I wanted to see. And yes, I know. Weight fluctuates. But I use that to kick my own butt back into gear and fight to see those lower numbers on the scale become my higher numbers.

I had to take those last two days off to allow my legs to heal. But now it's time to get out there and give 'er again. I know it'll take a bit to get back to where I was, so I'm thinking getting out there and trying C25K Week4Day2 or 3. See how I'm feeling. And if I can't do it, I won't be too hard on me. I'll just do my best.

I know I'm a little "behind". But I'm farther ahead today than I will be tomorrow if I don't go out today. I'll be that much farther from where I want to be.

I will be so proud of myself, even as I am out there today pounding the pavement. I know this.

You want this? Then EARN it!

You are starting to like what you see when you walk by mirrors. Keep up the hard work. That's what is getting you there. Don't stop now. Keep going. The ball has started rolling. Don't stop now. You are still 25lbs away from Onederland - 30lbs away from your goal. You can do this. You've already dropped 15lbs. You're 1/3 of the way there. Yes, it was a fight for every pound. It will be just as much if not more for each additional pound you want to take off. But it will be so worth it. Believe me.

My nutrition is very closely monitored for the next while, due to the cleansing diet I am/will be on and food allergy testing. I might as well take advantage of that. Use it to my advantage in the most productive way possible. Look at my reaction yesterday to a so called treat. I got sick. Whether I want the changes or not, I'm going through them all. So why not take advantage. They are good changes, even though they are hard.

Now, as for what I need to do today. I need to get up and get out there and run.

Back from my run.  I almost finished C25K Week4Day3.  I made it to the last 2 minutes.  Then the dizzy spells started, so I walked.  I can do this.

My avg hr was 145 - higher than it's been.  So it's been an awesome workout.  Yeah me!

Day 3 Probiotics - July 20

What an eventful evening yesterday.  I've discovered a few things.

1.  I really need to eat right.  No more winging it.  I NEED to focus on 6x/day eating.  Making sure I have enough freggies on hand.  And NO waiting to be hungry and dealing with it later.  It just turns me into a stressed out basket case who can't figure out how to feed herself.

2.  NO MORE ICED COFFEE'S.  Period.  They are NOT a treat.  I couldn't believe how fast it hit me, and how bad I felt.  Wow.  I'm pretty sure it was the overwhelming amount of sugar in it.  That and the caffeine as well I'll bet.

Luckily it hit me fast enough that I didn't get to eat much of it, so the effects didn't last too long.

I am finding now that I'm off the prebiotics, I'm not having the same within 20minutes of waking up soft BM.  It was almost too soft, but I knew it was from the prebiotics, so I wasn't worried about it really.  I'll be sure to keep an eye on that for going too far the other way now.  But I'm not finding any side effects of the probiotic.

I'm still sleeping in a little too long. Likely due to being off work for so long.  I'm going to have to change that soon.  New job starts Monday morning.  If I want to run, I'll have to get up even earlier.

Today is my first day back at running. Wish me luck.  I've finished my two days off to let my legs heal.  Now to see if they remember how to run.  lol

July 19 BodyMedia

Not bad for a day where I couldn't get my run in.  I thought about yoga, etc, but since it was pulled leg muscles, I just decided it would be best to just rest.  It was only for one more day anyway.  It's too easy for me to push too hard when it comes to things like this. 

Anyhow, I still hit my calorie deficit.  So overall I'd say not a bad day at all.

Thursday, July 19, 2012

Update on my progress

Well, I'm kind of disappointed. I challenged myself to loose 10lbs by July 25th I believe. I won't make it. I'm hovering at 225. To loose the 10lbs, I wanted to reach at least 220lbs. Ideally 219. I don't have a chance now.

I was doing my best, but hit a bit of a plateau. It took me over 2 weeks to realize that it was from not eating throughout the day. As soon as I started eating 6x/day, the scale dropped again. I was not eating any more, just spreading the calories out over the day.

I was still hoping for the best over the last week or so, but then I pulled muscles in my legs. I did my best to keep going the next morning, but it wasn't too long and I realized I needed to stop. So I stopped for two days. Today is the second day of no fitness. My legs are about 80% better already. But I've lost 2 days of workouts to reach my goal. And I hate to admit it, but my eating went off track too. I never over ate, I just didn't follow the 6x/day rule that I need to be following to see success.

I'm not going to let this stop me on my journey. I'm still going to keep giving it my all. Tomorrow is a new day. I can't wait to get back to running. I really do miss it. I needed this time off to allow my legs to heal, but I'm ready to get back to it.

Maybe I'll change the challenge now. I'll challenge myself to see how soon I can loose those last 5lbs to get down the 10lbs I wanted to reach. Why not.

I can say one thing, I'm feeling so much better about my body right now. I've got some new shorts. I've been wearing shorts for weeks now. Even running in them. I Never thought I'd wear shorts to run. It's always been capris up til now. But I'm running in shorts. Not only shorts, spandex shorts too. Heck, I'm even wearing them out. I've caught my image in the mirror when I walk past. I see a bit of a tummy I'd love to loose, but other than that, I like what I see. I'll have to take updated pics soon.

Anyhow, that's my update. Not as good as I wanted, but I know I did my best for it. Now to keep moving forward.

Day 2 Probiotics - July 19

Aside from the pain I was in with my legs and TOM, yesterday was a good day.  I don't think I had any side effects from the probiotics.

I am finding having to take these extra days off is taking a toll on me.  I don't like it, but it's necessary to avoid further injury.  I am feeling so much better today, but I'm still going to take it easy for one more day.  There are still some aches in my legs and of course TOM...

I figure I might as well let my legs heal so I don't hurt my knees.  Once I hurt my knees, I may not be able to run anymore at all.

So I'm taking today off too.  I don't do pain.  But seeing the scale hover around 226-227 is starting to hurt.  I'll just have to suck it up.  Eat well.  Focus on my 6x/day eating.  Then I'll be ready to hit the road running tomorrow.


Tonight Lee and I went to get groceries, and on the way home, we decided to pick up some iced coffees.  4-5 mouthfuls in my head was spinning and I felt nauseated.  I guess I just can't handle sugar like I used to .  Wow.

Before we went to get groceries, I was very stressed.  I could not figure out why at first, but then figured it likely had something to do with the fact I hadn't eaten well all day long.  I had a good breakfast, but then not much of anything - a bag of popcorn and a couple slices of GF raisin bread.  Definitely not a balanced diet.  So I started to think about what to eat to fix it.  That's when Lee suggested we go for groceries.  I passed by so many treats - skinny cow ice cream bars included.  But I finally told Lee what I was craving - the iced coffee.  We decided to pick some up.  It's been about 3 months since I've had one.  And since I've got 5 weeks before I have to go back on the strict cleansing diet, I decided to treat myself.  I'm thinking now I won't do that again.  Wow.  What a reaction to it.

July 18 BodyMedia

Couldn't run yesterday.  I could barely move.  My legs really seized up.  By the end of the day, my knees were starting to hurt because I was insisting on walking.  So I finally had to stop.

I actually ate 250more caloires than I tracked.  I don't have the GF cereal entered into the tracker. 

Overall, it was a good day, considering it was a day off.

Wednesday, July 18, 2012

Day 1 Probiotics - July 18

I am so happy to be done with the prebiotics.  Today I start on the probiotics.  I have no idea how I'm going to react to these.  Guess we'll find out over the next few days.  I will need to update my iPhone app to remind me to take these for the next two months.

That means I've got 4-5weeks before I have to go back on the strict cleansing diet.

I wasn't feeling good yesterday.  Had some anxiety.  Dizzy spells.  Tired.  And my legs were sore.  Pulled hamstrings.  They tightened up while I rested.  But I found out why I felt so off last night.  TOM.  It's a rough one this month.  Painful.  Anxiety.  And I'm just plain worn out.  It looks like it's going to be a rough few days.

Anyhow, it'll be hard to monitor any reactions to the probiotics while I'm like this, but I'll try.

July 17 BodyMedia

Overall not too bad, considering I couldn't run.  I still got in all my fitness.  Funny thing, it was just a regular walk, and I ended up hitting some vigorous activity.  Lol.  I guess my legs are more sore than I thought. 

I was having dizzy spells in the afternoon.  It was not a pleasant day overall. 

Tuesday, July 17, 2012

Today's Kick in the Butt

Want this? Really? I at least want something much closer to this than to this:

So, do you think sitting here on your butt will get you there? Really? I think sitting here will get me closer to the second picture.

If you want the body, you've gotta work for it. It won't come from sitting here, or from some magic pill. But it will come from a magic formula

As for the nutrition part, I NEED to focus on eating 6x/day. It's going to keep my body out of starvation mode. It will speed up my metabolism, and in turn, speed up my weight loss.

Fitness needs to be focused on every day too. Yes, I need a day off once in a while. But one in 7 is good. Otherwise, this fitness thing will always be an uphill battle, and I won't really be climbing. I will always be stuck making that first step over and over and over...

I know the equation. Now to put it into action.

I went running. Made it to 9minutes. Then folded it in. My leg is too sore to push on. It'll only hurt more. So I guess today's an easy day.

Day 14 Prebiotics - July 17

Yippee.  Today is the last day.  It'll be nice to try to get my having to get out of bed and pee at night under control.  I still had to get up twice last night.  Not as bad as it's been, but still not the best.

Overall I'm still feeling pretty good.  I have a sore muscle in my left leg today, but I think that's from
the fitness testing yesterday.  They had me doing all sorts of exercises I'm not used to doing, and a couple of them were tough on the legs.  Lots of squats of different sorts.  Lifting weighted boxes too.  When they had me do the last one, it was really a stress on these already worked out legs.  I was supposed to stand up straight, bend forward at the waist between 30 and 60 degrees, and hold it for 3 minutes.  I have no idea why.  Maybe to test if I could stabilize my body in an off balance pose for a period of time. 

Anyhow, it's all good.  I passed the tests.  Just not sure I'll be going running today.  Will have to think about that one.

Feeling good, both physically and emotionally today.  No strange aches and pains.  I think this is going to be a good day.

July 16 BodyMedia

Not too bad.  Lots of calorie burned.  Lots of activity.  Met my steps.  Had a descent calorie deficit at the end of the day.  And good sleep. 

I'm happy with it.

Monday, July 16, 2012

Today's Kick in the Butt

I took yesterday off. Let me re-phrase that. I didn't go out of my way to get in fitness yesterday. Rather, I spent the day in the kitchen canning. So my calorie burn was way up there, and I really got a sweat on with all the heat...

Anyhow, today it's time to get back to it. My first thoughts

"argh! I so don't wanna...."

Not really sure why. Reality is it's overcast out - that means cooler for my running. Even if it starts to rain, no biggie. I get some of my best runs in out in the rain.

I'm not really drained/exhausted like I am some days. Between my exercise, and the heat, I'm downright exhausted some days. This morning I just feel kind of blah.

We all know how to kick Blah to the curb right? It's called move move move. Fitness and exercise helps kick blah's right out of your mind. There's no room for blah's when the endorphins move in.

I am just getting my cereal together - batch cooking some quinoa for the week. The plan is to eat, drink some water, get on the shoes, and go run C25K Week4day2 - run9minutes, walk1minute and repeat 3x. I know I can do it. I did the 8/1 run on Saturday on my way to the farmers market. Running a different route and through traffic is hard. It is hard to keep focused. Concentrate on what I need to do, but I did it.

I KNOW I've got it in me to do this. I KNOW I can do this. I am actually starting to look forward to the endorphins that will come when it's done.

Back from todays run. I kicked it's butt. C25K week4day2. Done!!!

Avg hr was 143, so I was obviously working it.

Day 13 Prebiotics - July 16

I can't tell you how happy I'll be to be finished with these.  I am working so hard most days, between that and the heat I'm exhausted by bed time.  But that's when I have to take the supplements, with up to 3 glasses of water.  The last two nights I've cut it in half, but the Ozovit tastes so much grittier. I'm getting used to it.

I just keep holding on to the "only two more nights" mantra.  And it's true.  Tomorrow night is the last dose.  Then I can start on the probiotics.  I have to take 1 pill twice a day.  That's not too bad.  I'll take one first thing in the morning, and the second one with supper. 

Anyhow, overall I've been feeling pretty good.  Just tired, like I said, but that's to be expected with all the physical activity I've been doing

This morning I'm feeling a little off.  Not sure why.  Could be the overcast sky.  Could be the fact I know I need to kick my butt out the door today and go run.  Could be both.  It's not a really down feeling.  The rain will cool things off, and running will release endorphins.  I guess it's the lack of sunshine maybe.

I wonder.  I've got a "feeling" in my stomach.  Is it pain?  no, I don't think so.  Maybe a slight ache, but not really pain.  Hmmm.  I haven't had that in a long time.  Wait a minute, last night when Lee put his arm around me, I got a pain in my stomach.  A shooting pain.  Something happened a day or so ago.  I ate a meal that was really off my cleansing diet.  Let me see if I can remember it.  Okay, it wasn't a supper out - I just checked my food logs.  But there are two questionables on that log: I had lunch at the beefeater on Saturday - steak n eggs with shredded hashbrowns, and yesterday morning I had eggs, potato and mushrooms, and breakfast sausages. 

I wonder.  Could it be the breakfast sausages?  Or the hashbrowns?  Hmmm.  Looks like I've got something to investigate later.

July 15 BodyMedia

Yesterday was my day off from fitness.  I've been feeling so drained.  Yesterday I was even feeling a few aches, so I decided it was a no fitness day.

My calorie burn for it being a no fitness day was still pretty good.  I spent all day canning.  It really surprises me how much energy that actually uses up.

I still had a descent calorie deficit at the end of the day, so all in all, I'm happy with yesterday.

Sunday, July 15, 2012

Day 12 Prebiotics - July 15

I am just worn out and a little frustrated.  For the last few nights, I've realized how much I'm getting up and down all night long.  Running to the bathroom.  It's from all the water I'm having right before bed.  With my prebiotics, I am drinking 3 glasses of water right before bed with my prebiotics.  Up to two glasses with the ozovit, and one glass with the markofruct.  I have been cutting back on the water with the oxovit - it's down to about a half a glass for the last two or three days.  But I'm still up many MANY times every night.

One thing that helps is knowing I'm almost done.  I only have to do this until Tuesday evening.  Starting Wednesday morning, I'm done the prebiotics, and onto the probiotics. 

As for everything else, I was feeling great yesterday.  Tired, but good.  I got my run in early in the day.  I had a nice long walk.  Had a nap.  It was just a go go go kinda day.

Today the plan is to do some canning.  I have some cherries I want to make into a syrup, and a bunch of tomatoes.  I'll be picking up more of each before I get started.  I figure why not make a big batch, if I'm going to be tied to the kitchen for the day anyway.

July 14 BodyMedia

Had a day of personal bests again yesterday.  Most Calories Burned, and average METS.

I was feeling tired when I got up yesterday, and it took me most of the day to figure it out.  just over 4 hours of sleep?  No wonder.  I know I'm getting up many many times every night - it's mainly from taking my prebiotics right before bed.  It's about 3 glasses of water with it.  But I don't want to take them earlier in the day and be awake for their effects again.  No way.  I'm trying to take them an hour before bed now.  Hopefully that'll help. 

Saturday, July 14, 2012

Today's Kick in the Butt

This one is a little tougher. I have to stop to do something right after I write this blog. I need to get over to the farmers market and pick up a few things. Then after I get home I can go run.

I hate putting off my run, because it heats up so fast around here these days. Today it's going to reach 39C(100F). I definitely can't run in that. Right now it's actually nice out.

I'll have to make sure I do my run asap today.

I got on the scale today to check & see. It's still bouncing between 227 and 228. I so don't like that. It's frustrating, but I get it. I just know I worked really hard yesterday.

But it's time to put yesterday behind me. Today is all that counts. I need to make today count too if I'm gonna see the losses I want to see.

Some days it's hard to see the big picture. To see that all this hard work is so worth it all. But I KNOW it is.

Okay, even if I never do actually reach this kind of a body, I would love to be closer to it than I am now. I would love to feel comfortable in my bikini's again. Comfortable and confidant.

The path to get there is paved with sweat - my sweat. It's the ONLY way to get there. Is to BUILD that path. Period. No magic pill. Just hard work, and good nutrition. I'm doing great on the nutrition part. I track every bite on my BodyMedia site. Good healthy fuel, not padding

I can see my goal in my head. I believe I can get there. Now it's time to use all my might and GO GO GO!

I ran to the farmers market - had my run finish there.  I made it 2.5miles in 33 minutes.  Not too bad.  Then after a break I walked home - got in another 1.3miles. 

All in all it was good.  Avg HR for my run was 143.