Monday, November 17, 2014

Today's Kick in the Butt

I'm sitting here. Shivering. 2lbs heavier than I was last time I blogged.

Yes, life got in my way. I had a deadline, and a lot of baking to do for it. For the most part, I didn't do too badly during that week. I was so busy baking I didn't have time to get into trouble, or eat any crap.

But this past weekend was not good.

Anyhow, that's past. I can't change it. I can only affect today.

All I want to do is sit here under a blanket. I've been shivering cold for a few days now. The temperatures have dropped. I'm not used to it.

I know that if I get out and run, my furnace will kick in and I'll not only be warm while running, but for quite a while afterwards.

I know I need to get moving again. It'll help my blood flow, which will also help warm me up for much longer than just my run.

Running will help kick start my metabolism into high gear.

Move more. Eat Healthier, Drink Water, Sleep. That's the magic recipe to loose weight.

So if I know all of this, why is it so hard to get out the front door? Heck, today it's tough to even get dressed.

I guess it's true what they say. The hardest part is starting.

I have a different kind of day for work today. I have a couple hours this morning, then another shift later this afternoon. I have some running around to do, but it's all manageable. I'm picking up a tv for my daughter tonight after work. So that leaves my 3 1/2 hour break this afternoon mostly open. That'll give the sun a chance to come up and hopefully the wind to die down, but I doubt it.

Anyhow, today's plan is:
emoticon drink water - at least 8 cups
emoticon eat for fuel today, not for padding
emoticon Track everything I eat to help keep me on track
emoticon Get on my shoes and run W1D1HM after my morning shift - its' too late to go out right now to get it done.

You've got that wedding dress to look great in in March - just under 4 months from now.

Thursday, November 6, 2014

Today's Kick in the Butt

Yesterday was a difficult day. I wanted to get so much done. And I actually did do a lot. But I did not complete everything.

My first thoughts are that I didn't have a successful day. I tried to run - it didn't go well. It hurt. A lot. But even with the pain, I still pushed through and did 75% of the workout before I really started to question myself. Am I listening to my body? Should I be pushing through this pain? I tried, but the pain never went away, so I stopped.

I got about 80% of the rest of the things on my list done, but again, not all. Realistically, I set the bar pretty high yesterday, so I'm not too upset about this

Despite my first thoughts of counting yesterday out as not a success, I realized something. Compared to the day before, I put in 200%. I accomplished much more.

Isn't that what this is all about? Progress, not perfection?

So it's time I stop "should"-ing on myself. It's time to realize I AM doing something. It may not be perfect, but as long as I did better than yesterday, it's progress.

Today's Goals:

emoticon at least 8 glasses of water
emoticon as much as I don't want to, I need to get out there and run again today.
emoticon Track every bite of food, and be aware of nutrition vs empty calories.

All I want to do is sink into the couch again. I know why I didn't do very well on yesterdays run. I am working to rectify that.

But it's still so hard to get my shoes on and get out there.

I have a break from work - I don't need to be back at it until 3pm today. Okay, maybe I should get back around 2:30, but no big deal. I can push things off if I need the time.

What I shouldn't be pushing off is getting my shoes on and running.

I've already got in 6 glasses of water, and have started on the next 6. So water is good. Food has been okay for a while now. My calories are low, despite having some "fun sized" chocolate in the house. I don't believe in all-or-nothing, so I'm not judging the fact I am eating some chocolate. Moderation is preventing a binge.

All that is left to count today as a success is a run.

So what's my excuse? Am I going to let my excuses be bigger than my dreams?

Okay, I agree. This sounds feeble. But I'm accepting it as today's reality.

I just found my mp3 player. It's not the one I was using before, but a new one I purchased this summer. It took me an hour to find it, and upload my running trainer to it.

My afternoon time is now gone.

I have other "excuses" too. But I'm going to accept that today I'm not running.

*sigh* And I wonder why I can't seem to make any progress..... 

Wednesday, November 5, 2014

My Mountain

I have so many things ahead of me right now. It's overwhelming.

Enough letting it get to me. Time to start defining my mountain.

I want to go back to school and earn my MSW
I want to run the hypothermic half in February
I want to be in the best shape possible for my wedding - 3.14.15
I want to stop this depression that is trying to take me down

I know that's not a very clearly defined mountain, but it's a start. That's enough for me for today.

Today is the only day I have control over. Today I can do something to reach these goals, or I can just sit here and not make any progress. It's my choice.

What can I do today to take a step towards these goals?
- run. I can get out and run. I may not be able to find my Garmin, but I can run without it if I need to. I have a fitness monitor. I don't even know if I can find my mp3 player with my running trainer on it.

Looks like I've got to find my mp3 player, or buy another one. I really need my hand held when I start this journey. For me, that means having my running trainer tell me when to run, when to rest, and when I'm done. Easy enough to fix - cheap at Walmart.

- I can find my running gear
- I can register for the race
- I can eat well and hydrate

Once all of that is done, I can rest. Let my body recover, and spend some time visualizing my goals. Maybe better define this mountain I'm about to climb.

 Look at that. 2 minutes of looking and I've found my Garmin. It's charging now. I can't wait to update later today with more good news.

Starting out on a journey to conquer a new mountain

Realized today I've got a mountain ahead of me again. That thought started to overwhelm me, as a thought like that often does.

But then I remembered how I've climbed this mountain before.
I worried I wouldn't be strong enough to do it again

I remembered just how strong I am - not only when I'm progressing, but even right now. I'm strong enough to take that first step.
I'm strong enough to not let the mountain ahead overwhelm me, but to just focus on that next step.

One step at a time. I believe I can climb this mountain again.

Do I know exactly what the top of the mountain will look like? No, but I have a pretty good idea. I also know how can shape what I want that mountain top to look like and work towards those specific goals.

For today, I'm going to take that first step. The next step to climb that mountain. And when that's done I'm going to rest, and enjoy the opportunity to imagine what I want to achieve. Spend some time visualizing.

Finally, finish the day strong with a plan for tomorrow to take that next step.