Today's Kick in the Butt - Struggling

I am sitting here on the couch. Melting into it actually. I just woke up about half an hour ago. I'm struggling to just get up off the couch and MOVE.

I should
- fill up my water bottle
- take my rensa
- grab a banana
- avoid the coffee pot

Simple right? Then why can't I do it???

I let this "oh who cares. It really doesn't matter" attitude take over yesterday. I just rested. This darn cold I've been fighting...

I know. It's an excuse. I should know better.

Yesterday ended in me over eating at supper time, bloating, and being gassy all night. Also generally not feeling good about myself. I'm tired of those feelings.

I ended up spending all day thinking I should get out there and do something. I should move. I should eat. I should drink water.

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Funny how just simply stating all of this got me moving. I've pretty much done everything on my "should do" list from earlier.

So now I've had some breakfast. I've started my Visi regiment for today. I'm started on my water. And so far I've avoided the coffee pot. I'm off to a good start.

I need to be at work about 11:45 this morning. I only have a 90min break before I have my evening shift. If

FORGET IF.

The best time for me to go running is this morning. I just don't know if I can get up and get moving. I have less than no motivation right now.

Compromise. I'll rest now, but go at 9am. That gives me some more time to get in more water and wake up. I have a time I'm going running. And I'll have time to get cleaned up for work without rushing.

It's days like today that show me what I'm made of. That show me just how strong I can be. These are the days where weight loss happens. When you push through the lack of motivation - the overwhelming desire to just melt into the couch and do nothing.





No motivation? Babysteps

Get Dressed
Get Shoes On
Go Outside
Just go running for 10minutes. If you can't continue, stop. But if you can...
Finish your training run for the day.
Cool down on the walk home.
Enjoy the endorphins
No more stressing about having to get out and do something.

The hardest part is starting

***********UPDATE*****************
I'm back. I didn't finish my run, but I did go. I got it half way done before I couldn't breathe anymore. Too many people out cutting their lawns today. lol. Anyhow, I got out there. Now to get cleaned up for work. 

Today is DAY 3

I spent most of yesterday frustrated. I couldn't seem to get my self together and get out for my run. I ended up not going, and didn't even want to check my bodymedia results.

So this morning I plugged it in and checked. Turns out my gardening activities were more vigorous than I though. I not only got 80 minutes of activity, I also got 12 minutes of vigorous activity.

So by chance, it turns out I got in my activity in yesterday.

This morning, I'm still sitting here in my fog. I tend to wake up in a fog sometimes. Today is one of those days. I guess the overcast skies outside are not helping.



Not getting my activity/supplements in just makes me feel like a failure. It's simple really. A minute out of my day a few times for supplement and it helps with energy/strength/appetite. 30minutes out of my day for my activity. It really isn't that much at all, but the benefits are so worth it.

progressing in my training
Heart rate dropping
Legs and lungs both getting stronger
Endorphins. Can't forget the endorphins after a good hard workout
Knowing I've EARNED it
Knowing I've done all I can to reach my goals
Being able to eat a little more to help keep my energy up.

However, when I don't do what I need to do

Guilty feelings about not following through for myself
Falling behind in my training
Worry that I won't be ready for race day
Getting weaker
No progress on my weight loss
Constant internal nagging. I really hate this one

I don't get how I can even consider not getting what needs to be done done. The regret of not doing it far outweighs the effort to just get it done. Seriously.







I realize one thing again. Loosing weight is hard. It's no cake walk. If it was, there would be no overweight/obese people out there. It's the hardest thing I'll ever do.

So why do I keep thinking it'll be easy
I honestly have no idea. All I know is this 'belief" is keeping me stuck. I've got to change it. Realize just how hard I actually have to work. Realize my body is adjusting to my running. It won't be enough to loose weight this time. I need to do it - I'm signed up for a race this fall. Until the race day has past, as long as I'm pushing myself on my running - meeting my training challenges - I will let it count as my activity. When I can, I'll push beyond it. If I can't, I'll forgive myself. I don't believe in no pain no gain.

Time for me to get my butt up off the couch. I have supplements to take. And a run to get ready for.

Hope you all have a great day.

Today is DAY 1

I almost bailed on today. I couldn't figure out why, but I was so tired all day long.

Finally at 3pm I decided enough was enough. I got dressed. If nothing else, I was going to take Lulu for a walk. Well, we ended up running Week4Day3 of C25k - run9min, walk1min, repeat for 30min. Just under 3miles.

So today was a good day. I am well below my calories for today. Time for me to get some supper and some rest.

Starting Again

I didn't say starting over again, mainly because I'm not starting over. I'm in a different place than I was then. I haven't lost everything I've done up until now. I just have gone off track long enough to need to reset my clock.

I finished my 5DayNewYou program, with great numbers. I was happy with both the weight and inches lost. But over then next couple of days I wasn't feeling well. I've been fighting a cold for a long while now - coming up to three weeks and I've still got some of the cough. It's not bad enough to go to the doctor. I'm not even sick anymore with it - generally. I just cough at times. Then once a week I feel really bad - raw scratchy throat, congestion. I take a day or so to rest, and then I'm back to just coughing on and off. I'm thinking it's partly my asthma that is keeping this holding on for so long. It's a bad time of year for me with asthma and allergies. That's really why I hate catching colds. It takes me so long to completely get rid of them.

Anyhow, I realized yesterday I've had too much down time.

I'm only cheating me when I don't get out and move. I have no problem tracking what I eat - regardless of whether I move or not I need to know what I've eaten. It often shows me why I'm not feeling good, or why I can't run when I try.

So today is a fresh start. I also re-started my Visi Regiment. I'm going to track my progress on that also. I set my prescription reminder on my iPhone so alarms will go off when it's time to take my supplements. That should help me remember to take the supplements on time. I found that was one of my major issues. I'd forget my afternoon/evening supplements. No excuses now.

So I'm getting back on track. I weighed in this morning. Even with a week off, I only re-gained about a pound and a half. Not too bad, considering the peanut butter chocolate banana cream pie. lol

What challenges have kept you from reaching your goals this past week? Are they challenges? Or just excuses you are using? What are you going to do to overcome these? What are you waiting for?

Today is DAY 10

I've been in a lot of pain since bedtime last night.  I actually was hoping I'd wake up feeling better, but no.

My abdomen is in so much pain.  I have no idea what set it off today.  It hurts too much to stand up. 

However, it doesn't matter what set it off.  All that matters is it is. 

So today is a rest day - not by choice. 

I need to watch what I'm eating today.  I tend to fix tummy aches by feeding them. 

Time to:
- drink all my water
- eat healthy
- relax. 

That's it.  Sums it all up right there. 

Today is DAY 9

Wow. Day 8 didn't go too well. I wasn't feeling good all day long. Tired. Dizzy. Just not good. I ended up eating too much. Apparently when I feel like that, I try to treat it with food. It doesn't work. I still felt crappy all day.

Anyhow, I tracked everything from yesterday. Time to learn from it and move on.

Today is DAY 9.



I'm struggling with motivation to move today. It's overcast outside.

I know. Step one to overcome this is to just get dressed in my workout clothes. It will help. Then turn on my MP3 player. Finally just get out there and do it.

The sooner I do it, the sooner it's finished and I can relax for the day.

Oh yeah. I'm starting my next 5DayNewYou program.
www.5daynewyou.com
I need to take my Rensa and some water right away. Might as well add a banana to that. Then I've got at least a half an hour to wait before I go running.

I just checked the weather network channel. Looks like there's a 70% chance of rain before 2pm, and 90% chance after. Guess I should tie on my shoes and go before the rain comes. It's supposed to rain both today and tomorrow too.

I'm tired of paying $50/month for a gym membership here. The gym is often over crowded - it's a small place and they have too many members for its size. I am thinking of just getting a few more free weights/a barbell, etc for myself at home to use. There are some pieces of equipment I will miss - the row machine, the lat pulldown, etc. But I figure I can do pretty good without the crowds or the excessive costs. I have quite a collection of workout and dance dvd's. I also have a bench that does flat and decline, a kickboxing bag, and a stability ball. I'm pretty sure I could set myself up with a pretty descent workout space with these.

Anyhow, back to today. I've had my Rensa, water, and banana. Time to go get dressed soon. Today I'll be running W4D1 of my C25K program. Run8min, walk1min and repeat for half an hour.







Time for me to get out there and chase my dreams.

Today is DAY 7

I didn't do very well yesterday. I was WAY too low on calories in. I also ended up low on calories out, but in this case, it was a good thing.

With SP being down yesterday, I didn't get a chance to track my foods. I figured I'd be a little low, but not as low as I was.

So the plan for today is to eat more. I want a MAX of a 1.000 calorie deficit. I want to eat at least 1.500 calories. Shouldn't be too hard - looks like it's a road trip day. Hubby wants to go to Regina.

So my fitness is likely to be down today - at least 4 hours traveling - more likely 6 actually. It's supposed to rain today too.

My focus today is on nutrition. Eating enough. Eating fuel not padding.